Girlfriends (What If I'd Kissed You)

What if I’d kissed you – where would I be now?
Lost amid the rancor, desolate, and how 
Could I explain to all my friends 
Just how much my days on you depend? 
What if I’d kissed you, where would I be now? 
Maybe I had too much to drink, 
Or gave to you a little wink. 
I don’t know what I made you think, 
But our two minds were not in sync. 
Nowhere to turn to when I fled. 
I remember all the things you said. 
Your words still echo in my head,
Writing in the journal by my bed. 
What if I’d kissed you – where would I be now? 
Lost amid the rancor, desolate, and how 
Could I explain to all my friends 
Just how much my days on you depend? 
What if I’d kissed you, where would I be now? 

                        Horns Solo 

I recall the stress when we next met,
Looking like a vision in that dress. 
Had to leave the party so distressed,
Failing to forgive much less forget. 
I review your text, and wondered why 
That I thought we were just into guys.
Do we carry on, or say goodbye? 
Trying as I might, I can’t reply. 
What if I’d kissed you – where would we be now? 
Lost amid the rancor, desolate, and how 
Would I explain to all my friends 
Just how much my days on you depend? 
What if I’d kissed you, where would we be now?                    

          Guitar and Horns Solos 

Missing - something I know I’ve lost.                         
Losing - a best friend; such a cost. 
Feeling - roiled like an ocean tossed. 
Sighing - heaves my chest like frost. 
It’s these sighs that really matter, 
As broken dreams like ashes scatter. 
Hopes swept away as ideals shatter, 
Then I see you looking – at her. 
I never kissed you, and that’s where we are now.                                 
Move ahead with candor, resolute on how 
We will explain to all our friends 
Just how much our days on each depend. 
I never kissed you, and that’s where I am now. 
And you never kissed me, and that’s where you are now. 
I never kissed you, and that’s where we are now… 

©℗ Norm Surette, 2014, 2018

Thought I Saw You

Thought I saw you walking by today 
In a place you shouldn’t be. 
Couldn’t think of any words I’d say, 
As a pall came over me. 
Pulled my car off to the curb, 
Got out and scanned the street. 
No sign of you I could observe, 
My hopes halting in defeat. 

Haven’t seen you in a long, long time 
Since the words that cut my heart. 
Doesn’t mean you’ve not been on my mind, 
Despite all this time apart. 
You asked me to leave you alone, 
And I your wish obeyed. 
But the reason I have never known 
For this brutal price I’ve paid. 

Wandered slowly down the street 
Peering through each windowpane. 
And my feeble heart picked up its beat 
In hopes of seeing you again. 
No sight of you I could discern, 
Just reflections in the glass. 
To reality I should return, 
And this feeling too will pass. 

I haven’t seen you in a long, long time 
Since the words that cut my heart. 
Doesn’t mean you’ve not been on my mind, 
Despite all this time apart. 
I moved a thousand miles away, 
And from your life withdrew. 
But the distance it could not allay 
All the thoughts I had of you. 

I caught a glimpse of your short blonde hair 
As you entered in a store. 
Then I rushed and paused upon those stairs 
Fore I came in through that door. 
My fortune I could not believe, 
My thoughts were filled with glee; 
As I gently tugged upon her sleeve, 
And she turned to look at me. 

I haven’t seen you in a long, long time 
Since the words that cut my heart. 
It doesn’t mean you’ve not been on my mind, 
Despite all this time apart. 
What message will her eyes convey, 
And her words make truly plain? 
Oh, what would bring her here today, 
Lest she wished to start again? 

My fortune I could not believe, 
My thoughts were filled with glee; 
As I gently tugged upon her sleeve, 
And she turned to look at me. 
From the look upon her face 
It was clearly plain to see, 
This was just another case 
Of mistaken identity. 

I haven’t seen you in a long, long time 
Since the words that cut my heart. 
It doesn’t mean you’ve not been on my mind, 
Despite all this time apart. 

Thought I saw you walking by today 
In a place you shouldn’t be. 
But it was all my mind at play - 
Just mistaken identity. 
Yes, this was just another case 
Of mistaken identity. 

©℗ Norm Surette, 2015, 2018